I am Sorry I Hurt You

Have you guys ever hurt someone else with your words? I did.

I might sound nice and all innocent in my writings but I am really not good with my speech. I tend to hurt or offend people with my speech without having a single clue about it…at all. Most of the time I was trying to joke around and I ended up bluntly saying things that I am not supposed to. It’s often too late when I finally realized and regretted about it.
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When I was between 13 and 17 during my middle school days, I had a classmate who adore and respect me for my good merits. She thought that I am a creative writer and that I am a responsible and dependable leader. She even voted and fully supported me to be the class representative during my second year and the vice president of our school orchestra and marching bands during my fifth year. There were a lot more things that she had done for me during those days and back then I never really thought much of it nor did I do anything to repay or thank her.

The worse thing was I believe that I was the sole reason she spent those five years miserably with those cruel mistreatment from the boys. During our first year in the school, I jokingly told the boy she had a crush on that she has a crush on him. What did I expect from a 13 years old boy would react to that? Of course, he was embarrassed and told all of the other boys and then they were all started making fun of her as if she’s not from the same human species as they are. They made fun of her for those 5 years as if she doesn’t have the right to like somebody. They even went as far as nicknamed her as ‘The Corpse’ because of her pale skin tone. There were more and while thinking about those memories, I felt like shit.
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Then there were also some incidents with my other friends where I jokingly blurted out some embarrassing secrets that were told to me in front of the other people thinking that would be funny. The moment I caught up with their changes in expressions, I just knew that I have gone too far. Some of the time I tend to joke too much that they all turned into embarrassing and degrading jokes rather than a funny one. They’ll normally cause some awkward moments of silence and again I just knew that I’ve gone too far.
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I am an adult now. I’ve learned to watch my words although there are times that I can’t control myself. I’ve learn not to joke with secrets. I’ve learned that if some things are embarrassing to me, they are embarrassing for others too. I’ll be more sensitive about it. So, to all of my friends that are reading this especially Ezd, please accept my apologies. I am so sorry.
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11 comments:

airaniez wirdani said...

Ye,saya dah membacanya...No worries dear..there's no one in this world is *perfect*.Life is full with *jokes* & laughter..at least u still remember me..thanks..Take care & have a good life... ^_______^

Samrat said...

So many people keep on committing such mistakes everyday but never feel sorry about it. You, at least, realised your mistakes and accepted that in your blog which is a public forum. Realization, acceptance and regretfulness clearly indicate that you have a genuine and pure heart palpitating within. Nice post.

Anonymous said...

It's Okay !

vector said...

DON'T worry friend these kinds of things are happen many times in our life and you are really a great writer and i am happy to be brave that you told full story that you did mistake and also accept and feel sorry .

Ram Bansal said...

Everyone has his/her share of slips in life even with use of words. You should take these lightly. But saying 'please' 'thanks', 'sorry', etc liberally help in maintaining good friends. You are a sensitive person, I appreciate.

Sue said...

You should watch out for the words that would come out of your mouth, if this can't be avoided and hurt someone, just say sorry to them that you didn't intend to say those words.

Lily said...

This is a beautiful article! We all fall in that kind of mistake. We talk and joke around without any intention of hurting anyone but we sometimes hurt one or two with our words all because we don't know how to choose the right words. Indeed we have to guard our tongue.

Selena said...

Your article only shows how mature you are now since you are able to accept the things you have done back then and ask for forgiveness to the one you hurt.I salute you for it.Nice:)

James said...

You are really a generous person to accept your mistakes and ask sorry for your fault, the images in this blog gives more attraction to it. Cute blog with good content

varun krishna said...

First of all, it requires a very big heart to accept mistakes committed by oneself. To err is human, to accept them is divine.

dishita hukmani said...

Now days so many scams r taking place on online due to which it is very risky to post ur photos and videos online as u never know how they can be used for wrong things.
There r so many fake personalities online so i am a bit confused how u got a true boyfriend. But if u find him truthful then its good for u.

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