I guess it's been a long time since I last feeling happiness, that it is noticeable to others that I am being happy. Posted these pictures on my Facebook and a close friend of mine, Bitchy Khai Mun messaged me instantly.
Khai Mun: Emily, nice photos.
Me: Yeah, just took them during my company X'mas party.
Khai Mun: You look happy.
The next day, I received another message from an ex-colleague, Eddy.
Me: Big Smiley
Eddy: Waaa...Banyak epi ar... (Wow, so much happiness...)
Comparing this year X'Mas and my last year X'Mas, I am happier. No reason, I am just simply happy.
It is still the same me. Still poor, still single, still lost, but a lot happier. I am afraid of getting comfortable but deep down, at this time, I think I deserve this happiness for reaching out.